I want to expand on a comment I received on Friday on my post “I’m a Fat Girl” My good friend commented “Jule, I think being healthy is more important than being skinny” Being healthy is what is most important, but I am not healthy, I don’t look healthy or feel healthy.
Let me clarify what I mean by saying “I want to be a skinny girl”. I mean I want to lose weight; I want to be healthy and feel good about myself. I do not want to look like an anorexic model or twig but I want to feel good and feel comfortable about myself. I am not advocating a crash diet or extreme measures. I am taking it one day at a time, taking small baby steps, trying to develop healthy habits that will last a life time and a benefit of these changes will be weight loss.
Genetically I am lucky that I naturally have low blood pressure and low cholesterol but there are many more health issues that being overweight contributes to: I now snore like an old steam train, I suffer from sleep apnea and heart burn. My joints hurt, I get winded walking across the room, and I have no stamina. My weight and health is keeping me from doing the things I want to do and enjoying life.
The journey I am on is not just about losing weight if it was I would just go get liposuction, this journey is about becoming healthy in both my mind and body. Part of this journey is accepting my part in how I am and how I want to be.
I am a smart, beautiful, intelligent person, and am surrounded by wonderful friends and family who love and accept me no matter what my weight is. But I do not feel healthy and happy and making these life style changes are part of my journey.